I tink the below song (lyrics wic are highlighted in red)best describe hw I am feelin these few daes...

梁文音 - 哭过就好了

不喜欢怀疑什么
并不表示我 没有感受
看你微妙的变化 慢慢不同
我不是生气 只是心痛

最讨厌被误会了
但越解释 越觉得难过
你可以说人会变
但不能说 你会这么做 是我的错

哭过就好了 伤都会好的
这样相信 所以深呼吸 着割舍
爱是为了拥抱 为了牵手
不是为了争吵 为了掉头

哭过就好了 痛都会走的
记忆有限 所以它会淘 汰坏的
失眠听歌 想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我 长大了

最讨厌被误会了
但越解释 越觉得难过
你可以说人会变
但不能说 你会这么做 是我的错

哭过就好了 伤都会好的
这样相信 所以深呼吸 着割舍
爱是为了拥抱 为了牵手
不是为了争吵 为了掉头

哭过就好了 痛都会走的
记忆有限 所以它会淘 汰坏的
失眠听歌 想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我 长大了

越多美好堆叠的过往
想忘就得推倒更大的悲伤
要找勇气 却不在口袋或手上
但它一定在我身上 某个地方

哭过就好了 痛都会走的
记忆有限 所以它会淘 汰坏的
思念停格 想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我 长大了

I reali veri upset, disappointed n tis time round I gt hurt eventually by sum insider.. 2dae dun seem 2 b a gd dae 4 me or shd i say 4 everyone in my family side.. I dun noe wat to say or comment.. Cuz wat I say is doesn't gona change/erase certain ppl's comment on me abt tings tat aren't true, n can even make matters worse still.. I dun wish 2 say much or watsoever.. As long as I gt do my part, n conscience clear, I do not nd 2 bother abt wat other ppl say.. N I hate ppl who drag innocent party in sum matters when they din even do anyting wrong, or anyhw drag non-related matter to make dae even worse, or juz base on wat they c only 2 comment on stupid facts.. Pls if u dun even noe d whole story or dun Noe hw I am feelin, Pls shut up!

P.S Nv would I 4gt tis dae n nv will forgive those ppl who hurt me..

My one n only Aunt has left tis world tis morn.. I totally dun even hav d mood 2 do anyting esle.. Even @ wrk, i can't reali focus on my wrk.. N when my colleague n fren cum near me, i juz can't help n start crying..

Thou I nt as close as my sisters so close to her, bt imagine u hav two aunt intially bt one of them has died @ young aunt n nw ur 1 n only aunt oso left tis world, u will surely feel d same way as I do.. I could no longer heard her callin my chinese name.. I bet her children will feel more sad den me.. So do my dad.. All I can do is 2 wish tat she rest in peace..

i shd nt hav tis matter affecting my mood.. Bt i juz can't help it.. Tis matter happens on fri.. I nt gona hold it inside my heart liao.. It's makin me veri piss off n miserable, so i gona pour out hw i feel..

Tink in tis scenario, if u gt certain ting @ wrk u nt sure n unaware of hw 2 do it and u wana ask ur senior.. N there tis senior of urs sudden gt a bit piss off n say tat her husband waiting 4 her as they hav sumting on n nd 2 knock off earlier.. Hw would u feel?? U nt even god, hw would u even Noe u approach her @ d wrong timming?? I dun feel gd lo, i dun even Noe tat she is rushin 4 her time lo.. Still, she shd'nt giv me tat attitude.. N another ting wic i dun like is when sumtimes i wana ask her advise, she like abit too engross in her wrk n din respond 2 me.. or when i ask her sumting, den she will like sorf of chit chat w me n den talk a longer time den wrk on d pro i ask her.. I dun mind u chat awhile bt pls dun tok too long.. I nt so chatty like u k?

4gt, after all, i wun wana wrk in government sector after my tis temp assignment cuz i still prefer d wrk hw private sector wrks in their system..

Simple meal for 2dae(=

Consist of Chicken rice, jie lan cai, prawn and chicken breastmeat.. Hm.. Yum yum!!!

Hehe tis chicken rice, i juz bot it fr shp n save those packed chicken rice paste.. Hehe.. Smell gd and gald tat d rice is nt being cook too soggy, juz nice.. n.nV N nt forgeting my masterpiece of cuz~ D prawns!!!

My masterpiece b4 cooking..

My masterpiece after cooking..

Nx time i wana make dory fish fillet.. n sum other western food (=

Reali OMG!!=.='''

I pretty like the below song by Gary Cao.. hehe veri cute n sweet song~~ Esp the front part wic was sing in Cantonese.. (=

Shpping Trip @ Bugis w Zhen - 17.08.09

Yesterdae went shppin w Zhen.. N tis time round I muz say I did a gd job by nt lettin my purse lose too much wt.. Lol.. Much more lower den the amt I allow myself 2 spent.. Hurray!! Here r a few items I bot @ Bugis st..

Shall wear d above to office tml.. Hehe

hehe I like d above the most.. Looks cute, simple n sweet.. So suit my style.. lol

Ohya, I long time wana buy this brand of mask - 我的美丽日记 as heard fr Zhen tat it's v gd.. I nt yet try cuz I still haven finish my Etude hse mask.. Btw, Etude hse mask is great too.. Can feel the result instantly o.. n.nV

O.. Zhen oso recommend the above vegetarian dish.. erm.. Totally forget d whole name liao.. Bt I enjoy eating it.. hehe.. N it's juz sum where nearby Bugis st oso.. hehe

2dae sudd gt cravin 4 tom yum stuff.. Mayb I too long din eat tom yam tings liao.. So kinda miss d taste.. So went to buy d tom yum stock cudes n buy other stuff wic seems suitable for the tom yum soup.. Yeah yeah, my taste bud like it.. (=

My dinner 4 2dae..

Recently my throat hav bn feelin heaty. i oso wonder y?? Hm.. could it be too many spicy I ate those few daes? Hm.. anyway nw tat I hav juz taken d pi pa gao, nw I feel slightly beta.. Muz watch out my diet liao.. lol

Wrk recently has bn smoothly 4 me, bt juz tat there are certain tings/area wic I dun reali like.. Shall nt elaborate more on it.. Bt look at d gd side, my mistake r gettin lesser n lesser as it goes by.. (=

So happy tat I can go swimming on sat.. Ever since I finish my op, I nv had a chance or shd I say make it a time 2 arrange swimming.. Gal tat my dd let me swim for a longer time and oso glad tat thurs I hav a great gym wrkout w Elaine as well.. hehe Hm.. Planning mayb go w her again nx wk?? See hw it goes ba.. hehe..

ah.. time 2 update wat I hav bn doin for d recent long weekend.. hee..

On sat (19/9/09) n sun (20/9/09)..

I was watchin Ponyo on the cliff, he just nt into you n d proposal.. Omg!! all the shw was damn intesting.. Except for Ponyo tat d storyline is sumhw or rather like the mermaid.. Bt overall, I enjoy watchin it.. hee.. D proposal movie was reali thumbs up man!! Has a little sense of humor bt yet sum part of it reali shws sum reality like hw a 女强人was like.. N he just nt into u was rather a veri romance story.. Includes different types of luv story.. ^^

Mon(21/9/09)

Taking my hubby 2 Orchard ION as he nv been to here b4.. He mention tat it looks abit like those kl shpping centre.. We oso cum across sum interesting shp such as d art gallery wic was @ d top lvl n a bookshp wic was call prologue.. Bt Nvtheless, there is no lack of those branded shp wic sell those brand goods stuff, cosmetic etc..

Recently, my 生理期 abit werid n it's makin me worri when sumting was wrong.. Thou everyting seem ok, bt I still wana go 4 d appointment wic I book on mon.. Hopefully my gyane can clarify w me wat sorf of pro is causin it.. (=

Shpping @ ION w Zhen - 11.09.09

2dae went to ION w zhen 2 go shp shp again.. N tis time round my turn 2 hav a great harvest. Hee.. Finally gt $ to buy certain wic I like n need of.. Horray!! (= We went to eat tampopo( can't rem if tis is d exact name) to hav raman.. Yum yum, was nice n super yummy.. Bt mine is like abit too saltly.. Erm, din reali take pic cuz too hungry liao.. lol N the egg was speacial wor.. D egg white was hard boiled bt inside it d yolk was abit like half-cooked.. When u bite into it, d yolk will b dripping out.. Wow so cool man!! Den after tat went for our shppin of cuz.. Hereby is my harvest out fr the shppin trip.. hee..

S.H.E Pictorial Book..

Ohya, Coralle, u dun hav 2 lent me ur one le, cuz i alreadi bot it as my fren gt d kino discount card.. Hee..

After tat we went to the Etude wic is a Koran skincare shp whereby their products is being endorsed by Lin Min ho, d korea flower four de Dao Ming Si..

Sum fake Eye lashes n sun block..

different types of masks

Happen tat dae was the 1st dae of grand opening, so therefore below tis white was a welcum free gift.. I nt still nt yet use.. Hear fr Zhen tat tis shp oso gt another openin @ ps..

The poster n d two towel was oso a free gift when u purchase $30 of their products..

tis shoes was reali veri comfortable cuz the material is nt too hard n it doesn't bite u.. Tat's wat i like abt tis shoes..^^

I even bot tis scaft or shawn so tat I dun hav 2 bring my thick n heavy jacket..

anyway on fri, I had a great wrkout, cuz long time din perspire liao.. Went jogging around my hse area there.. hopefully in the near future I can continue tis momentum so tat I can keep fit n at the same time can lose sum weight thou ppl around me always my figure ok, or no 肚腩.. Bt I still nt too satisfied with my current weight. Recently I went 2 weight myself, OMG I gain back 1 kg.. )= sob sob.. After my op, I lost 3kg bt nw gain back 1 kg again. It seems tat I always will gain wt when I back 2 wrkin life as normally if I gt no job, I wun eat 3 meals, nor will eat only two meals..

hm.. toking abt food, I last week getting hands on cooking my veri own style of cooking hokkien mee..

C?? nt 2 bad rite.. hee.. I juz fried sum garlic n shallot 1^st and den pt in lean meat n let it cook for abt 10 or 15 mins. And then pt in d veggie n lastly pt d noodle.. den lidat the noodle wun b too soggy or too soft.. I oso gt try fry sum fries.. hm 1^st time nt too bad n my bf oso enjoy eatin it.. hee..

nice color hor?? Lol.. ah.. nx time I wana try fryin sum fish or steam fish.. hee..Oh btw, i juz hav a hair cut yesterdae.. Abit similar like d fated to love de Chen Xin yi hair style.. keke sure take a nice pic of it when i gt pt make up n dress pretty.. =X

Juz nw when was goin back hm after wrk, I was tinkin of certain tings.. Sumtimes I dun like my own character.. Cuz I reali those type who dun reali socialise w ppl who i dun noe.. I can say I am quite like one of the stall owner durin the 1st episode of buzzin cashier.. She oso like me dun reali dare 2 interact w ppl.. Hw i wish i am those outspoken type.. Likdat den I can get myself gd in socialising.. I dun noe if i reali born w it cuz since young durin sch times i alreadi lidat le.. haiz.. Anyway, my current job was pretty gd.. Gd in a sense tat my colleagues they are frenly n helpful.. Juz tat sumtings wic my co arrange wasn't reali gd la.. Juz find out tat sum of the temp staff act stay in Toa Payoh oso.. Bt too bad they knock off wrk earlier 30mins den me.. If nt i sure can gather w them.. Meanwhile I oso on the other hand searchin for jobs in tourism career cuz I dun tink I wana convert fr temp staff 2 perm staff as I reali do hope tat I can hav a job wic I hav much interest in n reali wishes 2 apply n make full use of my travel n tourism cert..

I pretty like the below song as being play during tis shw: heart of greed

Nice, meaning n sweet song.. (=

My Love Will Get You Home - Christine Glass

If you wander off too far
My love will get you home
If you follow the wrong star
My love will get you home
If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home Boy
My love will get you home
If the bright lights blinds your eyes
My love will get you home
If your troubles break your stride
My love will get you home
If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home Boy
My love will get you home
If you ever feel ashame
My love will get you home
when there's only you to blame
My love will get you home
If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home Boy
My love will get you home
If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home Boy
My love will get you home Boy
My love will get you home

hebe yaya hebe hebe ya~

Ella u can stay under my umbrella ella ella ella eh eh under my urmbrella.. lol..

i tot 2dae i can hav a gd dae ahead.. Bt veri ke xi, no matter hw hard I try 2 improve in certain area, i will tend 2 fail myself.. I tink is enuff for me alreadi le cuz I reali gt pt in effort in it.. If I reali din do anyting 2 improve it den I gt reali nthing 2 say.. These few daes I hav bn stressin myself in tis area, d moment i noe i fail, my heart say plz do it beta n end up I reali nt too happy.. so therefore i nd a new lesson - lesson of the dae - if u reali hav try ur best in everyting n still can't attain the goal, time 2 let go n free urself.. no pt stressin urself too much end up nt happy n affectin other areas..

Bt I do hate ppl who likes spreadin news n say d reason of me wrkin last dae or watsoever.. U can say I last dae bt plz dun b like a gossiper tellin the world d reason of me nt wrkin 4 ur co anymore.. Wat gd can u gt?? I dun reali understand..

These few days hav bn bothering abt d new job tat I juz started on.. haiz.. I noe I shdn't take tings too hard n afterall I shd count myself lucky tat I still can find a job during tis period of hard times.. Bt I juz can't help it.. Nt sayin d job is bad or all, after all still ok.. Juz tat I hate d lady boss. Veri kns n I simply dun like d tings she say.. N she seem like nt a veri easy 2 get along w.. haiz.. N I gt a feeling tat I wun wrk 4 long period nt sayin I wun wrk 4 them long is juz tat i gt a feelin tat d boss will anyting ask me 2 leave due 2 d expectation she wanted fr me.. Sumtimes I wonder wat for nd 2 speak so loud 2 in a office?? Sumore d boss wana me 2 speak even louder den her.. WTF!! I mean I dun reali hav 2 deal w customer one de mah, if reali tat case i gt no wrds 2 say.. Bt I am juz a admin staff nia leh.. If i gt a tourism related job i wun wana wrk 4 them man.. anyway enuff of wrk stuff, nw let me tok abt d recent meetin up w my toko frenz n zhen..

Meet my toko frenz on thurs n we go lao ba sa 2 eat eat.. hehe.. It's bn ages we hav sister gathering esp tis time round we finally gt 2 c xue yuan as loing time nv since her since our last kbox outing.. Nw tis time round she gt a femine look o.. I rem last time when she still in toko, she look like a xiao mei mei tat every1 will naturally dote on her.. Took quite a few pics after our dinner.. hehe.. Wen n xue yuan took alot of makeover pic n d credits goes 2 elaine.. lol..

Yesterdae oso meet up w zhen to go ION shpping centre.. tis shpping centre gives me a feel of grand n classic feeling.. hee.. Shw a lot of quite unique shps.. Bt I din bot anyting cuz dun wana spent $ as I juz started wrking.. I do hav a bit of xin yang yang as I kinfa c sum stuff wic I like 2 hav them as my own..

Juz as food hav diff kinda taste, so do every each n individual of us.. Includin me as well.. 2 me they are like the four season happen in other countries.. Juz let me share sum of my diff season in life.. Erm bear w me cuz it's gona b a long post.. =P

Sour season:
hm.. I can't rem hw old i finally get to hav my own pet.. Mayb when i was studyin ITE?? Anyway, the pet I hav was a local hamster which was one of my 2nd sister ham ham children.. N since i like ham ham so she say let me hav a ham ham that was still baby as she mentioned tat lidat more easier 2 take care of.. My ham ham was a female btw n her name was vicki.. hehe.. I reali like tis ham ham of mine.. She was reali cute.. N when nite time i was free, i often play n saiyang her.. hehe.. Bt too bad after a yr plus, she left me to go heaven.. I rem once my 2nd sis cum back niang jia, she saw my ham ham was nt feelin well n sumting wrong w her, so she left a note on my rm door sayin tat she has taken my ham ham 2 c d vet n they will call me if anything happen.. Act before the period of time I alreadi n noe tat she gona leave me one day.. I cry n saiyang her lots.. N when d vet call me n say tat she passed away, my heart sinkened n i finally brust into tears.. At tat pt of time, i reali cannot accept d fact n even do nt hav d appetite..

Spicy season?? Hm i wonder if rebellious was = spicy or nt??
if i nt wrong, i alreadi in primary sch start 2 b rebellious or shd i say i veri notti.. =X I play trant in sch, gt forged my mum signature.. Notti of me rite?? haha.. n when psle was cuming all i care was watching tv, if i rem i tink i din reali pt in more effort ba.. Tat time i was quite upset when i c my result was nt tat fantastic.. My temper was nt like d temper i hav rite nw.. I can tell u my temper was reali veri smelly one lo.. when i in bad temper i can throw tings or bang tings real hard one.. lol.. Bt after my temper gt changed so much better la.. heng ah, if nt i tink nobdy wana make fren w me..

Bitter season?? hm.. let me tink.. Din reali hav much bitter exp cuz i tink i am d kinda of person will cry n den forget d whole incident d nx dae.. sumtimes will oso wonder hw cum i can b'cuz of certain issue or matters cry one.. weird of me.. diaoz..

Sweet season..
I tink i no nd 2 say u all oso noe one rite?? hehe Is d sweet luv n care i gettin fr my dd.. I everytime c him, i always so happy n feelin gd for the day.. N he is d only one who change my mindset of hw love was like n hw 2 keep a relationship n passion in it 2 keep on goin.. hee.. (=

Hm.. shall update tis blog of mine with a heartening experience from the bottom of my heart.. (=

Thou nw I am still experiencing a tough n hard time tat test my patience n find out more abt the area wic I nw weak in and nd 2 improve on it.. These few daes I oso cum across sum funny n idoit ppl.. Ppl who nv speak their mind w/o thinking carefully or doesn't make sense @ all.. Dun noe 2 laugh @ their wu zhi or be angry w them.. I can't help by takin their wrds 2 heart as they totally saying tings tat reali make no sense @ all.. Bt nevertheless, I nw oso on the track of making myself more prodential towards the way of sucess. I am gald tat I nw trying 2 takin tings nt tat hard bt yet let nature take it course. Last time I shdn't hav take it too hard bt rather shd treat it as a challenge to master my strength n increasin my lvl of confidence.. Since I am a little luckier den other ppl who are in more poor plight den me, I shall wrk further hard.. ^^ Last bt nt least tks 2 my frenz n my dd who are there 2 support n giv me reali sum gd, realistic n practical advise..

Well well, it's another cooking dae on last sat.. Yay!! lol
N tis time round cooked reali simple meal..

Simple macoroni soup for lunch

Ingredients:
1 Chicken thigh
half cup of mixed veggie
1 cup of macaroni
1/2 Onion(diced)
Seasoning:
1 Tablespoon of sesame oil
1 Tablespoon of 花雕酒
1 Tablespoon of Soya sauce
A pinch of salt and black pepper to taste

Method:

1. Cook a pot of water.
2. Add in chicken thigh while the water is still boiling.
3. Remove any brown bubbles and continue to cook for another 5 mins.
4. Add in Onion and cook till onion soften.
5. Add in macaroni and cook till soften.
6. Then add in the seasonings and mixed veggie and cook for about 1 min. Serve hot when it's ready.
   

Seaweed fried rice for dinner

Ingredients:
1/2 mixed veggie
1 hot dog(cut into slices)
1 bowl of cooked rice
1 beaten egg
Seaweed(according to your liking)
Seasoning:
1 Tablespoon of sesame oil
1 Tablespoon of Soya sauce
Pepper and A pinch of salt to taste

Method:

1. Heat sum oil in a wok.
2. Add in the hot dog and stir fry till lightly brown.
3. Add in the mixed veggie and the cooked rice.
4. Add in beaten egg and mix well with the mixture.
5. Add in the seasoning and stir fry till the rice is evenly color.
6. Add in seaweed and mix well and ready to be serve.
   

蛋包饭 for dinner as well

hm.. as for 蛋包饭,tis is my 1st time trying it out.. Nt too bad la.. Lol.. I juz merely beaten two eggs and den separate the egg mixture into two and cook separatly in a wok.. I search sum info abt hw to make it.. Hm.. roughly need abt four beaten egg and den when u cook d egg, wow, alot of skills is required wor.. Like wat is shown in the below video.. Hm.. Hope tat nx time i can slowly mastered d skills of preparing this dish.. hehe..

I notice that the latest trend u will gt to c during wedding dinner is tat u gt 2 c nt only the Groom n bride weddin photos, u oso get 2 c hw both of them look like during their childhood n growing up daes.. Hehe.. Like my fren Shu ping n his wife, they made their photo into video n share it w us.. As for my aunt daughter, they put a collection of photo outside the ballroom.. N they exchange rings n ask everyone 2 b the witness of them.. this is reali sumting speacial n new 2 me.. Hm.. mayb when my turn, i shall make video n design too..n den ask professional 2 help me edit.. lol