On the eve of my birthday, I received the news of which I had been dreadful of and also prepared myself some time back.
For those who know me close enough, you would had already know what really happen.
Yes my dad has already pass on. When I arrived at NCID, he had already left the world but in a peaceful manner. There is no sign of struggle. To think positively, it was a relief for him actually. It wasn't easy for him at his old age, to have suffer from breathing difficulties, chest discomfort etc.
I don't dare to say I am very good daughter as the time I spent with him was not so much compared to my sisters. Due to own's covid infection, husband recovering period from hospital discharge. But my love for him is not any lesser.
Is very hard for me to accept the fact that he is already gone on the first day. The only time finally make me accept this moment of truth was the moment he was being push for cremation and also his bone ashes. His bone ashes has some light pink spot which according to the mandai cremation and columbarium staff that such cases means this person while alive did many good deeds on thus he went to heaven.
It was a relief for me that he went somewhere peacefully.
During the wake, there is many custom to follow, like prayer items, no. of days to pray for him etc. But also at the wake, I saw some ugly side of relatives.
